Posted in personal essay, poem


Losing a loved one is hurtful, the more if it is sudden, when he was at his peak of health and youth. Disbelief, confusion dominated our thoughts, grief brought down our spirit while everything else felt numb and cold. It took awhile to sink and for me to finally accept that a loved one will never come back, saddest part – we never got the chance to say goodbye. And this hurts more than anything…

I wish that through writing I could alleviate the pains of our lost, and for everyone who is also grieving I hope to share this with you…


wish I could go back to the day

when angels came and took you away

I wanted to hold your hand so tight

kiss you gently and say goodnight

and then just before you had to go

I would tell you how much I love you so

i don’t know how, i don’t know why

I never had the chance to say goodbye.

by: John F. Connor


Posted in personal essay

gone too soon…

While the rest of the world celebrates, I remain quietly observing, feeling all emotions, trying to rise above the bitterness and sadness of our lost. The way i see life will never be the same again…

The sudden passing of my only brother – Vannie, changed the way I see life. It is much shorter than I thought, it gives us blows that sometimes knock us out to the ground. His death was so heartbreaking. He was so young, full of life, a music lover and a good singer. As his big sister I felt that I should have spent more time with him, but having my own family changed my focus and then it’s too late… I realized that in this finite life, we have our family, my daughter who I now embrace much tighter & longer. I began playing with her again, spending time with my family as much as I can. The need to see or talk to them is now more profound. In this finite life we tend to waste the chances of sharing a life with and for others. That’s why God created Eve for Adam, sharing is the key and loving is the way of life.