My wedding without daddy

Still in cloud-9 days after my church wedding. Another dream came true all to God’s glory… It was a sunny Saturday afternoon, sky was clear, weather was fair. Even the notorious Manila traffic seemed to be cooperating and so we arrived in Basilica Menór de San Sebastián 40 minutes early. Long enough to finish praying the rosary, simultaneously I talked to the chauffeur and coordinator assistants. I convinced myself not to cry, “yep this is nothing” anyway Dadi is smiling down from heaven and I’m sure he is very happy for me. Finally this day came, after twelve years of anticipation…

I wrapped the rosary around my wrist like armor to strengthen me. 

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I thought I was equipped not to cry,

I thought wrong.

The antique steel door slowly unclosed. I was instructed to count 5 seconds before making the first step. The door flung open, and there my poor heart started beating rapidly. So fast that it felt like my heart leaped off my chest. My hands were shaking. The coordinators kept on reminding to walk slowly, I heard them faintly for my heart was much stronger ~ it desired the man standing in the altar waiting for me. 

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“love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust.

Love still stands when all else has fallen”

1 Corinthians 13:7-8

I looked way pass him, still trying to stop the welling of my eyes. Yet, it made me more emotional. To see the image of the blessed Mother Mary (Our Lady of Mt. Carmel) was the best reminder of this dream that was about to unfold. All attempts failed and I wept, using up the tissue prepared in my hidden pocket. At that moment, everything else was blurry in my sight, I didn’t mind looking terrible and drenched in tears.

Happy tears. 

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Then, I looked at the right of the altar and saw a familiar cross with the sacred image of Jesus. A similar crucifix as that of Lourdes, France. The church is such a perfect setting, everything seemed so surprisingly wonderful and surreal. 

Little trivia: The church is the only all-steel church in the Philippines, made by a French engineer – Gustave Eiffel who also made the famous landmark Eiffel Tower in Paris. 

And it hurts because a year ago my father died suddenly and unexpectedly, missing him in the most significant day in my life… I would have wanted him to be there even in wheelchair. But, the turn of events were tough, became even more difficult when my father-in law was again hospitalized and placed in ICU and my mom-in law needing to stay with him. And so both my in-laws and my Dadi were missing, it was painfully sweet and special.

Fatherless wedding. 

The wedding was almost perfect, maybe perfect, because everything was God’s gift to me and Erik. 

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I opted for a simple one and specifically asked the photo/videographer to capture raw, candid, real emotions. I skipped many traditional scenes and the reason for this is that my life has too much melancholy and sadness already. No need to be fancy and dramatic. Masking the blues with laughters, giggles and smiles. At the back of my mind, I’d wished for Dadi to be there, handsome in his Barong Tagalog. Maybe, a chance for us to bond and to be a little vocal of how we actually feel. I missed the opportunity to tell him I love him, a goodbye never said, a guilt that affects me and regret that changed my life then on. 

This post is to honor the memory of my dad, for my late brother as well. Taking opportunity to remember with love those who are no longer with us, they are in our hearts forever.

Happily ever after continues on next post…

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Thank you to these awesome people/team ♥️
P/V: Thee Creation Media http://www.theecreationsmedia.com
Wedding Coordinator: Events by Miss P https://www.facebook.com/eventsbymissp/
Preps: Holiday Inn, Makati
Ceremony: Basilica Menor de San Sebastián
Reception: Casa Roces Malacañan
BridalCar: Don Robert
Florist/Stylist: Amelia Blossoms
Gown: Jun Escario http://www.junescario.com
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Prayer for Protection against Evil

Need Protection? This is what you need. Because evil is everywhere, comes in all forms, working on your downfall, conniving for your defeat.

 

Prayer For Protection Against Evil

Heavenly Father You have promised that when we dwell in the secret place of the most High and shelter under the shadow of Your wings you will guard and guide us, protect us and keep us – for You are our refuge and our fortress and You alone are the one in Whom we place our trust.

Thank You Lord that no matter where I go Your hand leads me, and Your right arm upholds me.. for You are before me and behind me, You are above me and below me You are at my right hand and also at my left. And You are within me.. indwelling in my heart by the power of Your Holy Spirit, Who is my ever present Help in time of trouble.

Father I pray that You would protect me and my family from all the evils that are lurking nearby and from those that would seek to harm us. Uphold us and keep us safe from all the evils that encircle our lives. Put Your hedge of protection and safety around us we pray, and place a guard at our doors and protects us from all that pass by our gate. And Father, keep our hearts from fear but rather fill us to overflowing with Your perfect peace that passes all understanding. Thank You that You are indeed our refuge and strength. You are that ever present Help in time of trouble – therefore in Your strength we will not fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the middle of the sea. – for You are with us wherever we go. Thank You in Jesus name,

Amen.

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mitch.e

Praise & Worship Songs with Lyrics

Sharing my favorite praise and worship songs which I choose to sing often in our weekly mass. 

THE POWER OF YOUR LOVE
Lord, I come to you
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That i’ve found in you
Lord, I’ve come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of your love.

(Chorus) Hold me close
Let your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to your side
And as I wait
I’ll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with you
Your spirit leads me on
In the power of your love.

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see you face to face
The knowledge of your love
As you live in me
Lord, renew my mind
As your will unfolds in my life
Living everyday in the power of your love.
(chorus)

CHANGE MY HEART OH GOD
Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change of my heart oh God
May I be like you.

Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change of my heart oh God
May I be like you.

You are the potter
I am the clay
Mold me and make me
This is what I pray.

Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change of my heart oh God
May I be like you.

I WILL SING FOREVER
I will sing forever of your love, O lord.
I will celebrate the wonder of your name
For the word that you speak is the song of forgiveness
And a song of gentle mercy and of peace.
Let us wake at the morning and be filled with your love
And sing songs of praise all our days
For your love is as high as the heavens above us
And your faithfulness as certain as the dawn.
I will sing forever of your love, O lord.
I will celebrate the wonder of your name
For the word that you speak is the song of forgiveness
And a song of gentle mercy and of peace.
I will sing forever of Your love, O lord
For you are my refuge and my strength
You fill the world with your life-giving spirit
That speaks your word
Your word of mercy and of peace.
And I will sing forever of your love, O Lord…

Take and Receive

Take and receive, O Lord, my liberty
Take all my will, my mind, and memory.
All things I hold and all I own are thine
Thine was the gift to thee I all resign.

To thou direct and govern all and sway
Do what Thou wilt, command, and I obey
Only Thy grace Thy love on me bestow
These make me rich, all else will I forego..

 

credits to the rightful owner.

with love;

mitch.e

A powerful Prayer to the Holy Spirit

God the Holy Spirit,

third person of the blessed Trinity.

Spirit of truth love and holiness,

proceeding from the Father

and the Son,

and equal to them in all things.

I adore You and love You with all my heart.

Teach me to know and to seek God,

by whom and for whom I was created.

Fill my heart with holy fear and love of God.

Grant me compunction and patience

and allow me not to fall into sin.

Give me an increase of faith, hope &

charity and bring forth in my soul

all the virtues proper to my state of life.

Give me Your four cardinal virtues,

Your seven gifts, and Your twelve fruits.

Make me a faithful follower of Jesus

and an obedient child of the church.

Give me the grace to keep the commandments

and to receive the sacraments worthily.

Raise me to perfection in the state of

life which You have called me.

And lead me to a happy death,

through Jesus Christ, O Lord.

Grant me also O Holy Spirit,

You who are the giver of all good gifts,

the special favor for which I ask…

(mention your request)

if it be for Your greater honor

and the good of my soul.

God bless,

 

mitch.e

Prayer of thanksgiving

0F8AE0B4-1F7B-4945-A672-2ED73315BCF6.jpegThis recent hospitalization of my in-laws made me realized the frailty of life. The dawning of one’s life is such a poignant reminder how we should live in this world, grasping every breathe, savouring every moment, enduring the highs and even the lows of our existence. One day you’re up and okay, next day you’re not. And God, through it all, yet we fail to continue looking up, He is always there.

Now, I speak of His wonderful love, His infallible mercy and grace, He listens and has heard the woes and cries of His Children. I’m so thankful, walking in faith not by sight, thoughtful that God’s grace is the only help I need.

i love you, Lord.

mitch.e

 

Prayer when overwhelmed

Sharing this prayer for everyone who feels overwhelmed, when problems pile up and worries seem endless.

Prayer when you feel overwhelmed.

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Oh God Almighty Father,

I seek You as I feel completely  overwhelmed.

I do not have the time nor the energy

to sustain myself or my life.

There’s just too much…

Please help me Lord.

Show me your hand, in control of all things.

Let me find rest in You.

Help me to trust You for anything, for everything.

For You alone are sovereign.

You own time itself, my only refuge, my hope.

So, I stop at this moment,

and seek You.

I can feel the breeze of Your merciful love,

Helping me carry my cross & survive each day.

I rise up strong again,

in Christ,

and face the world,

my path straight and firm.

With faith in Your Son,

whose great name I pray,

Amen.

 

Adopted from Pinterest but with few revisions.

Mitch. E 

Prayer to Keep Going

Prayer to Keep Going. 

Dear Father, when the pressure mounts and the troubles of this world begin to close in, give me the grace to return to You.

All I need is your loving mercy.

Never leave me Lord…

Even I don’t feel You there, at least let me understand that you are there.

Give me strength and fight a good fight.

Let your grace allow me to believe in the only one that gives me Truth and Clarity despite the pain and struggle.

And if it be your will, fill my heart and soul with the overwhelming Joy that only your Spirit gives.

For your are my hope, my strength and my refuge.

In Jesus’ name.
Amen