Losing a loved one is hurtful, the more if it is sudden, when he was at his peak of health and youth. Disbelief, confusion dominated our thoughts, grief brought down our spirit while everything else felt numb and cold. It took awhile to sink and for me to finally accept that a loved one will never come back, saddest part – we never got the chance to say goodbye. And this hurts more than anything…
I wish that through writing I could alleviate the pains of our lost, and for everyone who is also grieving I hope to share this with you…
wish I could go back to the day
when angels came and took you away
I wanted to hold your hand so tight
kiss you gently and say goodnight
and then just before you had to go
I would tell you how much I love you so
i don’t know how, i don’t know why
I never had the chance to say goodbye.
by: John F. Connor
I carry your heart with me.
by E.E. Cummings
I carry your heart with me. I carry it in my heart.
I am never without it, anywhere I go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling.
I fear no fate, for you are my fate, my sweet.
I want no world, for beautiful you are my world, my true.
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant,
and whatever a sun will always sing is you.
Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher
than the soul can hope or mind can hide.
and this is the wonder that is keeping the stars apart.
I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart…